Change is funny.
I mean the kind of change that occurs when people undergo a mental or an emotional shift.
People, especially if they are at all like me, do not embrace change easily... regardless of what we say.
In my experience, deep change, the kind that results in wisdom and compassion... the kind associated with the transits of Pluto, seems to occur when my back is against the wall and I have surrender to the inevitable.
Here is another example was caring for my father in his last days.
We had shared the same house. Little by little I fell into the role of primary caregiver as he became more frail. I struggled to hold on to the life that I had. But as I took over more and more of the day-to-day and he needed more care and supervision, I had less and less energy and time to devote to my own needs.
Finally I just had to let go. I realized we were at a point that I had to put my focus front and center to caring for him.
Once I made that decision to surrender, the entire energy shifted. The day-to-day was still very difficult, but we were blessed by a kind of grace.
As for my father, he fought death, the ultimate change, tooth and nail to the bitter end. But after being in pain, he let go, he relaxed... and crossed over. And as his spirit was released from his body, his pain disappeared along with his infirmities. And he was filled with joy and love.
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