Life change is a funny thing.
You can feel the necessity to change and then you feel resistance. When the change is large the obstacles can seem insurmountable.
I remember being in my late 20's working at a job that I hated. It didn't start out that way. For the first few years I worked at the company, the management was enlightened and it was an oasis for a young woman trying to build a career in a predominantly male industry.
But then, for a variety of reasons, there was a turnover in management and the new management made life very unpleasant. This period coincided with a retrenchment in the industry so few jobs were available. Not having other employable skills at the time, I felt trapped.
Finally I began to investigate other fields and so began my three month odyssey in real estate sales. That's another story.
In my spiritual development circle, I kept receiving messages that my guides were working on getting me out. It was happening, but not yet down in the Earth plane. Just chill, they said. It will happen for you when the time is right.
Think of a bank vault. When the vault is locked, its heavy doors will keep anyone out that didn't have powerful explosives. But at the time when the vault is programmed to open, you can open its heavy doors with your pinky finger.
So I whined and waited.
Then one day there was a call from a headhunter. It led to a phone interview, then a face-to-face interview, then a job in another state that was a big step up from the one I had.
And, it, too, ran its course.

Truth be told, my life turned around 180 degrees at that point and many doors opened. The events I described happened 25 years ago and I could not have been more ecstatic to be freed from a highly toxic work environment.
My thoughts had turned to that event upon learning about someone who had committed suicide as a result of things going seriously wrong in his job. Im not going to go into the details of his situation here, except to say that from what survivors could glean from events, he felt trapped in a deteriorating situation with no way out.
While no one will ever know what was going through his mind, I do know how desperate I felt when I felt trapped and change seems insurmountable. So I wanted to share the process of change when it did happen.
Posted by: Ellen Zucker | November 28, 2009 at 04:45 PM