Life Change, Job Change, Bank Vaults and Timing

Life change is a funny thing. 

You can feel the necessity to change and then you feel resistance. When the change is large the obstacles can seem insurmountable. 

I remember being in my late 20's working at a job that I hated. It didn't start out that way. For the first few years I worked at the company, the management was enlightened and it was an oasis for a young woman trying to build a career in a predominantly male industry. 

But then, for a variety of reasons, there was a turnover in management and the new management made life very unpleasant. This period coincided with a retrenchment in the industry so few jobs were available. Not having other employable skills at the time, I felt trapped. 

Finally I began to investigate other fields and so began my three month odyssey in real estate sales. That's another story.

In my spiritual development circle, I kept receiving messages that my guides were working on getting me out. It was happening, but not yet down in the Earth plane. Just chill, they said. It will happen for you when the time is right.

Think of a bank vault. When the vault is locked, its heavy doors will keep anyone out that didn't have powerful explosives. But at the time when the vault is programmed to open, you can open its heavy doors with your pinky finger. 

So I whined and waited.

Then one day there was a call from a headhunter. It led to a phone interview, then a face-to-face interview, then a job in another state that was a big step up from the one I had.

And, it, too, ran its course.

Comments

[11DoveLove11]

"a big step up" "ran its course"

Er, why do I find myself looking for the link to the happy ending part? Yep, everything runs its course, but I want more than a "step up," which just seems like a euphemism for "still not really what I want." I think a lot of us are tired of settling for that, tired of being told to be patient, and yet our patience, if we're lucky, only seems to get us "one step up."

I want BLISS already, is that too much to ask? :) But, I feel until we overcome all our fears and "demons," I s'pose "one step up" is all we're gonna get. Hey, guess it's somethin' ;)

Hmm, I'm hearing the prob maybe that we can't get focused on what that "really want" thing is, and that would surely be a requirement before we can begin to coax ourselves into believing would actually have it. And then it seems we settle for "one step up" a little too potently. Can we be too grateful? Gratitude yes, but pretending we're happy with "one step up," when really we're just settling for second best, no.

Back to the drawing board ;)

Peace,
Dove

[Ellen Zucker]

Truth be told, my life turned around 180 degrees at that point and many doors opened. The events I described happened 25 years ago and I could not have been more ecstatic to be freed from a highly toxic work environment.

My thoughts had turned to that event upon learning about someone who had committed suicide as a result of things going seriously wrong in his job. Im not going to go into the details of his situation here, except to say that from what survivors could glean from events, he felt trapped in a deteriorating situation with no way out.

While no one will ever know what was going through his mind, I do know how desperate I felt when I felt trapped and change seems insurmountable. So I wanted to share the process of change when it did happen.